Date: 02-07-2023
Tags: self-discovery
Source: Journals Tree of Life
It’s time for me to go home. I’ve said this so many times, but I end up changing my mind. Why? Because I’m afraid of going backward. Afraid of starting over. But why? I’m a master at starting over. & what is failure anyway? How do I define it?
To me, failure looks like growing cold & numb to the beauty & wonder of life. Failure is sacrificing your true self to the demands of society. & have I not, by this definition, been failing for years now?
I’ve lost the fire I had in my younger years. I’ve lost my tenderness.
I’ve spent so much time & energy worried about money & security & “success”, I’ve allowed the wonder & simplicity of life to pass me by. In many ways I’ve outsourced my thinking & ultimately my living, by putting far too much stock in the opinions of others.
Where has this fear of failure come from? I wasn’t always this indecisive… I used to be quick to take action. I wasn’t so afraid of making mistakes.
**“If one listens to the faintest but constant suggestions of his genius, which are certainly true, he sees not to what extremes, or even insanity, it may lead him; & yet that way, as he grows more resolute & faithful, his road lies… No man ever followed his genius until it misled him… If the day & night are such that you greet them with joy, & life emits a fragrance like flowers & sweet scented herbs, is more elastic, more starry, more immortal—that is your success.” - Henry David Thoreau
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I have been a performer who works for love Losing the Wonder The love of family & friends + What is success + Who am I becoming