Date: 10-25-2024
Tags: self-discovery
Source: DailyCapture
It’s axiomatic that our psychological and spiritual development is heavily influenced by conditioned beliefs that are difficult to distinguish from our own inner knowing. There’s a time in everyone’s life when she hears the call to walk away from the constructs that limit and bind her, and to journey towards the unfolding of her true being. There’s resistance to the call because the journey is unquestionably dangerous, and the unconscious knows that.
To answer the call, one must forsake all she once took for granted and throw herself into the choppy waters of doubt and uncertainty. The beginning of the journey is a time of tumult and severe anxiety. It is a liminal space. Between what we have known and what remains to be known. The sense of a solid identity is stripped away and one feels as vulnerable and undifferentiated as an unborn child.
Despite the extreme discomfort of this phase, it would be futile and counter-productive to cling to dead belief systems for fear of the unknown, for the sake of certainty, because to do so is to cut ourselves off from the ever-flowing river of truth that erodes structures of the psyche that no longer serve our authentic evolution. To admit uncertainty, not knowing, or even confusion, doubt, being lost - this is strength because it has behind it and beneath it the powerful force of truth. If we can admit where we are, exactly where we are, we can start from a place of truth, and it’s only from a place of bold honesty that we can begin to build an authentic life, to know our authentic voice. The voice of truth must begin as a voice of doubt and questioning as it is leaving the paradigm that it is no longer in resonance with. The paradigm has become a lie. For us to continue to speak with certainty when inwardly we are questioning everything around us, we would then be living a lie, snuffing out our own voice as it calls us into the light of truth.
The first “I am” is a trembling whisper, but it is the beginning of the fully awakened, embodied, true Self.
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“At the bottom of great doubt lies great awakening. If you destroy doubt, you will also destroy awakening.” - Zen proverb
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“Questioning is the piety of the mind.” - Martin Heidegger
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